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Why can't you finish what you've started?
Why can't you try and understand?
It doesn't make a bit of difference if you start what you can't finish..Every story needs an ending, after all..I think I've known it for a long time suffice to say,it's been a while...
You're too afraid to face the outcome..quite likely, you're a failure..
It's a shitty thing to say, but hey man - the clock is ticking..and i thought of all the things I'd like to say,cramped up and couldn't write a word all day..
I just waited for my world to fall apart..That's why I'll never finish anything I start!!What fills the magic in the meantime?I know it’s hard without a vice,
You need to find a new solution,Adaptation or retribution...If you truly do believe in something,somehow it all works out...
I'm completely bored with every single word..and nothing ever works and this juvenile search is systematically revealing to me that I need a new approach..
So sick of all the things I'm trying to say..I just waited for my world to fall apart
That's why I'll never finish anything...

i caught my self

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought

Of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me
Down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want
You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this!
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought

Of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me
Down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
When I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should've never thought of you!
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I know, but now I know what I want! I want! I want!
Oh no! I should've never thought!

--paramore

kangeeeeuuunnn!!!

yeah..nowdays,felt so broken heart..dont talk about him....yesterday felt so mad with him..then i went home alone without any permitted to him..in the night i really wanted to go somewhere..then suddenly lady sent me a message..she asked me to go out..and i said yes of course..then dela came to my house after that we went to lady's hause..but what...ternyata si dhidhi lagi ribut ama bahok dan eh akhirnya gw,kibo,and kitul nunggu aja ampe setengah 10 baru deh jalan..itu juga cuma makan seafood di regency..tapi enggak apa-apalah...namanya juga kangen,ketemu mereka aja udah seneng banget..oiya..kemaren di bis 44 gak taunya ketemu aja gitu sama donna..hahaha..akhirnya bareng deh kita..sepanjang perjalanan gw ama donna gak abis-abisnya cerita-cerita tentang anak soceia..yang bijeh digosipin punya pacar lah..ah macem-macem banget..and i really miss that moment!!
kangen aboy yang suka agak bokep
kangen anggit yang suka ngasih contekan
kangen arbi yang temen csan nyontek bangetlah kalo lagi ujian
kangen kibo pas kemana-mana naik mio nya dia
kangen donna yang suka ngajarin pelajaran kalo gw gak ngerti
kangen reggy yang pasrah aja kalo dikatain
kangen eby yang suka nemenin gw kemana-mana
kangen jengkol yang tiap maju ke depan keringetannya lebay
kangen hesty yang pasrah aja kalo di cakin dadang
kangen ina yang suka bantuin kalo belajar
kangen intan yang terkadanng suka curhat bareng dia
kangen si om yang kalo kibo gak ada,dimintain anter gw pulang ke rumah selalu jwab ya
kangen dadang yang sentimental abis ama gw
kangen jamban yang suka ngatain gw
kangen bahok yang sering berantem kadang-kadang sama gw
kangen triana yang suka traktir di kantin
kangen dede yang bisa di curhatin
kangen sutika temen sebangku yang enaaaak banget bisa di ajakin apa aja sesuai mood
kangen latipe yang sering ngasih pulsa
kangen sinta yang sering gw godain pake upil ampe hampir nangis
kangen kate yang selalu bikin ketawa anak kelas
kangen bedul yang suka bikin celotehan-celotehan&lagu-lagu gak jelas
kangen mas luki yang alim banget
kangen rifky yang sering dikatain banci tapi diem aja
kangen mute yang sering ngajarin gw bahasa inggris
kangen pinonk yang suka ngomongin debby haha
kangen virna yang pasraaaah banget kalo dikatain dan ikhlas kalo dimintain tolong
kangen lintang yang suka kepedean sendirian
kangen abah yang suka ngelucu
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kangen pak nyoman yang cs an banget ama gw
kangen bu utami yang suka bawelin kita
kangen sensei denok yang suka ngatain anak-anak kalo lagi belajar
kangen pak adi yang bisa buat di curhatin segala macem hal
kangen bu des yang suka ngecakin gw
kangen bu denok yang baik abis kalo ngajar
kangen bu endang yang suka nasehatin gw
kangen bunda yang suka cerita-cerita
kangen pak franky yang kalo ngajar suka gak jelas
kangen bu euis yang kalo ngajar pasrah aja nak-anak gak mau belajar
kangen pak feri yang suka cengar-cengir sendiri
kangen bu fitri yang suka ngasih masukan
kangen pak asrin yang selalu muji gw
KANGEN BU LIS,yang selalu denger celotehan-celotehan gw
kangen bu ema yang tiap ketemu gw selalu nyubitin pipi gw
kangen bu nunik guru yang sempet ngajar di bta
kangen bu hartini yang sensi abis ama gw
kangen sumairi yang sotoy haha
kangen bu asih yang suka sok banget
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kangen dateng terlambat terus di suruh lari*tapi kadang kabur atau curang*
kangen nungguin motor sambil gosip
kangen olahraga dilapangan samping
kangen ke wc tiap pelajaran
kangen kalo lagi bengong di depan kelas
kangen ngeliatin anak-anak solat jum'at tapi malah makan
kangen mie ayam kantin bawah
kangen nasi soto si ibu
kangen bubur yang di kantin bawah
kangen somai ito
kangen mie yamin di kantin atas
kangen sosis solo di koperasi
kangen nongkrong di kelas bahasa pas istirahat
kangen kalo istirahat sering ke perpus
kangen solat bareng anak-anak
and there are still lots of stories that i misses...i wish i could turn the time back...ooohhhh!!!sekarang sih kalo kangen cuma bisa liat bts,buka youtube nonton video angkatan 14,ama chatting aja..selebihnya?susah banget ngumpulin anak-anak yang segitu banyak..huhhhhhh!!!

by my side

I never stop feeling strange,cause you never know if you really changed...
You can never tell if your center stage,is thin as glass and never meant a thing...
And you never feel good or bad only strange and unprepared,cause I never see you coming or you leaving..
It's taking time,all this fear I pushed back to move on..beating me like a panic attack since you've gone and if I never fear to be more alone, I do now...
I turn to see my faded tracks in the snow...
I've come so far with no idea where to go..
It's takin' hold of a fool with a fondness for pain and turn to run without a chance to explain..I don't look back to spot where I fell,don't you look back, and don't you ever tell..cause we know pride, it doesn't heal all that well,all that well...
I need you to tell me you'll be right by my side!!When I feel alone, you'll be right by my side in a crazy world, you'll be right by my side

todaay

hari ini senaaaaaang sekaliiii...tadi pagi kok tiba-tiba kepengen jalan-jalan gitu yah sama ogi..secara udah lama gila gak jalan..hahaha..lebah deh aaaahh...terus tadi gw telvon eeeh tapi katanya dia mau main futsal..ih bete banget deh...lagi pengen jalan-jalan tapi dia nya gak bisa..eh tiba-tiba dia dateng aja gitu ke rumah..hihihi..akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk ke Puri Indah Mall...dulu waktu awal-awal pacaran banget,sekitar 4 tahun yang lalu kita kalo ngedate kesana..biasanya tuh kalo ngedate kita pertama-tama nonton bioskop abis itu makan di goiza atau gak es teler atau gak popeye hahahahahahaha...ya udah akhirnya kita jalan lah ke puri..nyampe sana langsung antri gitu...anjir..padahal twilight tuh ada 3 studio,tapi antri nya sampe 40 menit wkwkwkwk...akirnya dapet juga tuh..waaaahhh..filmnya bagus banget walaupun kata ogi biasa aja..uuh dasar si ogi maaahh!!edwardnya itu loh ganteng banget..hehehe..abis nonton terus jalan2..liat2 toko elektronik..liat-liat laptop...duh jadi bingung dah mau beli yang mana hahha..abis itu ke strawberry mampir beli jepitan ama kuteks..abis itu seperti biasa agak berdebat sedikit sama ogi untuk menentukan mau dimana buka puasa..akhirnya ujung2nya di foodcourt juga halaaaaaaah ahhahahahahahahha...abis dari situ mampir hero..belanja keperluan harian..terus ke starbucks..lagi ngidam kopii eh tapi gw malah beli cold chocolate cookies cream..hahahaha odoooy daaah...ckckckck...abis itu pulang ke rumah ogi bentar say hello with his family..udah lama gak main ke rumah ogi dan mungkin besok mau lebaran disana juga kali yaaaa...abis itu pulang deh..si ogi mau main futsal..hihihi cukup sekian dan terima kasih..

why do i heart this band?

it's paramore!!yeah..i'm so freakin out about this band..this morning,i woke up at 5.30 after pray i turned on the computer..as usual,open facebook,plurk,blog,paramore,and watched youtube...i was looking for the final riot..yeah,paramore now have released the final riot..i don't know is that the DVD in store in Indonesia or not..and i think the price is about 150000 idr..

when i saw the video in youtube,it's really great..they made the songs different..okay this video was really make me dazed..the video is pressure..oh my goood..it was really awesome...before,just josh farro that introduce by hayley(in misery bussiness hayley lets josh play his melody but before it hayley always says "HEY JOSH")..now Jeremy's turn...i saw it still general...nothin too special..but when the lyrics

"i can feel the pressure,it's getting closer now..we're better off without youuu"(where hayley pretended that she looked for someone with her hand on her forehead)..then she did it on Josh..but what happened next?Jeremy had a llittle bit ran and jump at Josh..aaawww....it really really really made me soooooo dazed..you can check it out here..

don't forget to check the minute : 2:25 and 2:37

oh ya..Twlight now in Cinema..i can't wait to see it..yeah,i haven't seen it yet because i don't have free time..i will see it as soon as possible...oh Edward Cullen I heart You dear,,and have you heard about the paramore's songs for the soundtrack of Twilight?it's decode and i caught my self..it was great songs too..PARAMORE GREAT!!!hahahaha..but i better like decode..i don't know why..

this is the video of paramore on vma,check it out here

i don't like hayley's hairs like this 

what a fuckin day!

kemarin,tanggal 2 desember 2008...malem sebelumnya si ogi bilang kalo suruh dateng pagian...akhirnya gw bangun agak pagi dan siap2..but what?si ogi tetep dateng kayak biasa nya..anjir..ngeselin banget tau gak!!eh udah gitu pas di jalan motornya bocor..geez..bete abis deh pokoknya..akhirnya gw telat setengah jam *again*..matkul kemaren sih cuma satu kelas,yaitu mikro..pas nyampe kelas fiiiuuuhh untung dosen nya belom dateng...eh tiba2 anak2 tuh ngasih kadoooooo...uwaaa...kalian tau mereka kasih gw apaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa???yayayaya..cd st 12 boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!ya Allaaaaaaaaaaaaahh...hahahaha...gw yakin banget nih pasti kerjaan si tania deh...kenapa gw dikasih itu?gw flashback lagi..gosh!!!waktu itu tania minjem ipod gw..diantara lagu yang keren2 dia kaget..gini nih

tay:demi apa ayu ada lagu st 12?

gw:hahaha..cuma suka yang puspa doang tay...

tay:ohmaigoot

gw:enak tauuuuu

hahahahaha..aduh sial bener deh nih anak2...udah gitu gw dikasih kaos gitu deh warna ungu..lucu bangeeeeeeeeeettt..makasih ya Ginanda Anastasia,Nurina,Tania Putri Wardhani,Isfiana Ulfah,Nabella Oktavia,Maya Cintami,Nur Hidayanti, dan Irma purnamasari.. ILY ALL...ILY 9..hehehehe..

eh tapi gak taunyaa kemaren gak ada dosen..ya ampuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!makin keseeeel tauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!tau gitu yaaaaaa,gw mendingan GAK MASUK DAN TERTIDUR PULAS DI RUMAH!!!!!beeeeeeeeeuhhhhhhhhhh..

mana pas lagi di depan CBD nabrak *ups,means "ditabrak" ama motor..orang jelas-jelas mobil gw diem,gak mundur,dan si ogi ngeliat sendiri kalo tuh motor nyeruduk mobil gw..anjirrr abis malu bo tu bapak-bapak teriak2 and ngomel-ngomel gitu diliatin banyak orang..*padahal emang dya yang salah sih*....nyampe rumah langsung tidur..hahaha....what a fuckin day banget laah...

i love my best

hi all..hari ini maceeeet bangeeeeeeetttt!!!!ngeselin abis deh...alhasil telat setengah jam lah ke kampusnyaa..udah gitu ada gosip kalo mau quiz...ngek...pas nyampe kampus ternyata ketemu martha sama yayat di bni..yaudah barengan lah kita ke atas..eh pas di depan lift ketemulah sama patrick and pudyo..barengan lagi deh ke atas...eh pas lagi di dalem lift patrick nyanyi happy birthday gitu uh so sweet deh ahhahaha...nyampe kelas gak tau nya gak quiz tuh ahahaha alhamdulillah..abis itu kita makan deh as usual di kandang...hahaha...terus abis mikro tuh ada kelas pengantar bisnis..males sih masuknya..tapi ya udah lah..daripada absen ya ga?di kelas pengantar bisnis gw bete abis ama si titatituteto..ah gembel tuh cwe..liatin aja..di kelas dia boleh punya banyak temen..di luar kelas?hell-o???????????nama lo udah di blacklist abis ama 2 angkatan cuy...mang enak!!!gosh..help me get out from this fuckin class...masih 3 bulan lagi...sabaaaarrr!!!abis itu bawaan nya udah badmood aja..keluar kelas anak2 pada mau ke itc..duh bimbang nih ikut gak yaaaa?masa cabut bahasa inggris??tapi gimana?orang anak2 pada gak masuk..Ya udah akhirnya gw pengen ikut..tapi tiba2 ginanda and nurina ilang..damn!!tas gw??akhirnya gw telvon..katanya dia lagi ama temen sma nya gitu..ya udah,gw sih ngewajarin aja kalo misalkan kayak gitu..akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk gak ikut sama anak2 karena gak enak sama rina and gina..ya udah gw nunggu aja di kmm aka brawijaya...eh udah gitu si bogel minta temenin ogi gitu ke depan..uh gw di tinggal dasar...eh pas lagi makan makanannya si badak,tiba2 datanglah sahabat2 gw saat ini..rasty,ginanda,nurina, sama ogi bawa birthday cake gitu..ya ampun,so sweet banget sih mereka...gw terharu banget sama gina and rina yang rela beli kue jalan ke dwima..panas2an..padahal kenal juga baru berapa bulan aja..gw bahagia punya temen kayak mereka..semoga bisa temenan selamanya..amieen ya Allah...ulang tahun kali ini dapet hadiah spesial dari orang2 terspesial....terima kasih ya Allah :)..semoga gw bisa mensyukuri atas segala nikmat yang Allah berikan...